assalamualaikum everybody, sorry for not blogging for a very long time. I was busy the whole time repenting, dealing with examinations, watching movies, engaging in weekend soccer games, travelling to yck to spend time with miss irritating and a shopping trip to malaysia right smack after my exams.
Due to possibly her perpetual irritatingness, she managed to persuade her good friend Arlene to take part in a buffet marathon in which they literally obliterated their countless number of plates within the hour or so. To maintain her svelte figure, Arlene took a couple of carb blockers which would aid her defence against the congregation of fats that were coming her way. In my opinion, the pills really worked wonders.
Arlene after a buffet combo of sumptious food and overdose of carb blockers.
Other than the abovementioned activites that kept me busy, the bulk of my time was spent repenting under the guidance of an American-Muslim evangelist. I am now a reformed neanderthal whose dream, like fellow self-professed american muslims from the American Muslim Org, is to release a record in a remix of Arabic rap so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and progress for our nation. To further accentuate my intrinsic pride and determination to embrace his evangelistic insignia, i meditated everyday reciting his rhymes that could be found here.
The ambidexterity and smooth flow of his rhymes kept me reciting it like a mantra for days, and soon enough, i can now rap like an american muslim. To show my love and support for my new found sacrosanct evangelist, i hereby present his friendster profile so as to publicise the effects of conforming and self-professing as an american muslim.
The abovementioned american muslim is like so totally sachok to da core wah piang eh wei she mo wo shi jacky cheung x 10 to the power of infinity rite?
But he supposedly doesnt know what sachok is anyway, because malay words of the likes are considered blasphemy and are ostracised from the social circles.
"U know any malay words then u not american already ah..u downgraded become malay muslim already so that means u become like "mat and minahs" already ah whom we consider to be inferior to us because we can rap like a bona fide wannabe and they cant..but chinese words can horr. we dont want to fren-fren with mat n minahs but ah beng can ah because they rich."
I watched the movie "Coach Carter" recently and i thought it was a great movie with a lot of lessons that pertains to life. It was a real account of a basketball coach who banned his unbeaten team from playing because they were getting bad grades in school. I was attracted to this particular quote that was cited in the movie.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear our presence automatically liberates others."
I pondered long and hard after hearing the quote. I construed whimsical thoughts revolving life.
I dont fear not being good enough in my studies, i fear being too good for myself and gradually being conceited, looking down on my fellow classmates who aren't doing as well.
My deepest fear is not being not good enough for my significant other, my deepest fear is thinking im too good for her and losing her doesn't matter much because i could easily find another.
I dont fear not being forgiven for my sins, i fear not forgiving others because of a wrong action done by him/her which i think is bigger than the world, when its actually a small mistake.
I dont fear being looked down upon, I fear looking down on others because of features which are deemed negative in MY own opinion.
There is nothing enlightening to make yourself smaller to accomodate people who simply don't have the confidence or self esteem.
Everyone has their wrong and rights. What extra features does one have that he/she thinks that their opinion matters? That he/she has the right to condemn anyone to eternal damnation according to their liking?
I think i have a fortunate life, and im grateful for it. I thank God i have Miss Irritating Siti Nurhuda as my pillar of strength.
I think the more easier life one has, the higher the expectations of their life they set.
One has a complete family, a beautiful house, 4 TV sets, 3 computers, wardrobes of clothes, and yet they sulk, throw a tantrum, and protest heavily when they do not get enough pocket money to go on a shopping spree.
Yet they go online and complain about how sad their lives are through web blogs.
"I am very sad. I want to die because blogger is being a bitch and deleted my entire entry. *sobs*sobs*..n i dont have oreos to make up for my sadness..*triple sobs*"
It is so totally not, unless u watch stupid scary shows like ju-on 2 of course, which is not even scary.
Or skipping your meals to save up your money to watch Troy, to catch a glimpse of Orlando Bloom's big fat stupid face.
Now tats really stupid. Especially when u can catch him playing for Arsenal FC on weekends wearing a jersey adorned with the name Pascal Cygan and spotting a bald head. For FREE.
